So the little green monster has reared it's ugly head again. On Monday my sister told me she is pg. She got her BFP that morning. I'm happy for her but so disappointed and sad for myself. I really want to be pg. What a loser, eh? I can't even be truly happy for my sister. It's not like it's another younger cousin or something. What is wrong with me?! God PMS is such a pain in the ass. I know that's what is feeding this - magnifying it so that I become this whiny, miserable excuse for a sister. OK, and the exhaustion of spending all day with very very active 6 and 7 year olds.
Sigh! Time to go hide out and wait for AF to bring sweet relief from this hormonal yuckiness.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Happy and Sad
So, we are back from all the welcome home festivities. We survived the longest 4 days ever! We had a great time but I'm glad to be back "home" and trying to settle into a routine.
The only thing is, I'm not sure what sort of routine we should be settling into. It looks like I'm going to take the PT job in AZ so we can be back by the middle part of August when DH has to be back at work. This is going to be one heck of a couple weeks - keeping my head in my job and arranging for housing and moving our stuff back to AZ.
I'm desparately sad for my friend CK. The optimistic side of me (which is growing smaller by the day) wants to hold out hope that her twins will hang in there but I don't want to seem foolish when all the signs point otherwise. I think I'll go with the hope that a miracle will happen. I know not many of them have happened lately but if anyone deserves to have a miracle touch their lives it's CK and her Beloved.
The only thing is, I'm not sure what sort of routine we should be settling into. It looks like I'm going to take the PT job in AZ so we can be back by the middle part of August when DH has to be back at work. This is going to be one heck of a couple weeks - keeping my head in my job and arranging for housing and moving our stuff back to AZ.
I'm desparately sad for my friend CK. The optimistic side of me (which is growing smaller by the day) wants to hold out hope that her twins will hang in there but I don't want to seem foolish when all the signs point otherwise. I think I'll go with the hope that a miracle will happen. I know not many of them have happened lately but if anyone deserves to have a miracle touch their lives it's CK and her Beloved.
Friday, July 20, 2007
Waaahhhoooooo!!!!
I know I could have included this in my update but I really wanted to give it it's own post. I'm so freaking excited for my friend CK. Check out her big news!
I've "known" CK since we were both TTC our first children. She was the community leader on our board when I got my BFP with Jack. I didn't really get to know what an amazing woman she is until much later though. If you don't know her story, read her blog. I promise you won't regret it!
And CK, I know the coming months are going to be filled with anxiety for you and your Beloved. Know that we will all be here for you! If you need anything, I'm just an email (or post) away.
I've "known" CK since we were both TTC our first children. She was the community leader on our board when I got my BFP with Jack. I didn't really get to know what an amazing woman she is until much later though. If you don't know her story, read her blog. I promise you won't regret it!
And CK, I know the coming months are going to be filled with anxiety for you and your Beloved. Know that we will all be here for you! If you need anything, I'm just an email (or post) away.
Settling In
It's been two days now since DH came home. Things are still working their way back to "normal" - whatever that is. We've got our trip to Las Vegas for the official welcome home this weekend. After that we can work on making plans for the future.
We did talk about what's next and agree that a move back to AZ is what we want. I've got a job interview in AZ on Tuesday so I'm hoping we'll be able to make that move soon!
Right now I'm just enjoying having him home and safe. DS is over the moon having Daddy home.
The hardest thing so far? Learning to share the bed, and the covers, again! LOL!
And yes, the little spat that first night blew over.
We did talk about what's next and agree that a move back to AZ is what we want. I've got a job interview in AZ on Tuesday so I'm hoping we'll be able to make that move soon!
Right now I'm just enjoying having him home and safe. DS is over the moon having Daddy home.
The hardest thing so far? Learning to share the bed, and the covers, again! LOL!
And yes, the little spat that first night blew over.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Home At Last!
So the good news is that DH is now home!! He arrived safe and sound at his demob site and called me as soon as they got off the plane. What a relief!
Of course, we also had our first fight on the phone during that same conversation. Sigh! It's not a big deal, just wish it had been longer than the first 10 minutes he was here.
So I'm looking forward to actually being able to see him. It may not be until the weekend but I'm hoping that we can arrange to meet this evening.
Of course, we also had our first fight on the phone during that same conversation. Sigh! It's not a big deal, just wish it had been longer than the first 10 minutes he was here.
So I'm looking forward to actually being able to see him. It may not be until the weekend but I'm hoping that we can arrange to meet this evening.
Monday, July 09, 2007
He's Home
Dad is home! He came home this morning and is doing so much better just being in his house with his things and getting on with his recovery in a more calm atmosphere.
I'm telling you, a hospital is a horrible place to be sick! I thought that my experience when I had DS was unique to the maternity ward (hourly wakings for vitals, etc) but nope!!
So here's to an uninterrupted night of sleep!
I'm telling you, a hospital is a horrible place to be sick! I thought that my experience when I had DS was unique to the maternity ward (hourly wakings for vitals, etc) but nope!!
So here's to an uninterrupted night of sleep!
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Side Effects
Sorry to leave you hanging after my last post. Here's the latest:
The surgery was done in exactly the time the dr said it would be. Dad came thru with flying colors! There was little to no damage to his heart, which is a very good sign. That means he hasn't had any heart attacks that they can see and it also means his recovery should go smoothly.
He's been in the CCU since Friday. He only spent one night in ICU! They've already gotten him up and walking, and have started making plans for him to come home some time tomorrow. Wow! That's fast!
My sister, BIL and I will be moving my dad's bed down to the lower level of the house. It will be easier for him than climbing the stairs all the time, at least until he has more strength. But we're leaving the treadmill in his room so he can use it whenever he wants;-)
An interesting "side effect" is on the relationship (or what there was/is of one) between my dad and mom. They've been divorced for about 5 years now but were separated for several years before that. Until now it's been strained at best whenever we get together for family stuff - weddings, birthdays, etc. On the 4th we went to my sister's for a bbq and I guess my dad, mom and step mother had an interesting conversation. One that ended with them on better terms than before. I hadn't realized that it had even taken place until yesterday when my step mother said something about it.
Here's hoping that this week is the start of a healthy dad, and a healthier family!
The surgery was done in exactly the time the dr said it would be. Dad came thru with flying colors! There was little to no damage to his heart, which is a very good sign. That means he hasn't had any heart attacks that they can see and it also means his recovery should go smoothly.
He's been in the CCU since Friday. He only spent one night in ICU! They've already gotten him up and walking, and have started making plans for him to come home some time tomorrow. Wow! That's fast!
My sister, BIL and I will be moving my dad's bed down to the lower level of the house. It will be easier for him than climbing the stairs all the time, at least until he has more strength. But we're leaving the treadmill in his room so he can use it whenever he wants;-)
An interesting "side effect" is on the relationship (or what there was/is of one) between my dad and mom. They've been divorced for about 5 years now but were separated for several years before that. Until now it's been strained at best whenever we get together for family stuff - weddings, birthdays, etc. On the 4th we went to my sister's for a bbq and I guess my dad, mom and step mother had an interesting conversation. One that ended with them on better terms than before. I hadn't realized that it had even taken place until yesterday when my step mother said something about it.
Here's hoping that this week is the start of a healthy dad, and a healthier family!
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Bombshell
So the high I was feeling at my last post has long since faded away - and it's only been a few short days.
Within 48 hrs of my last post we learned that my dad needs to have triple bypass surgery. Talk about a total shock! He's perfectly healthy (aside from a bum knee, chronically sore hip, and diabetes) and not feeling at all like he had heart problems.
The last 48 hrs has been a total whirl wind. Test after test and making arrangements for this and that. It's amazing what you can accomplish in so short a time if you need to. I don't think I've had a chance to process it yet.
So here we sit in the hospital waiting room, anxious for any scrap of information they can give from the operating room, trying not to drive each other crazy.
Did I mention how much I hate hospitals?
Within 48 hrs of my last post we learned that my dad needs to have triple bypass surgery. Talk about a total shock! He's perfectly healthy (aside from a bum knee, chronically sore hip, and diabetes) and not feeling at all like he had heart problems.
The last 48 hrs has been a total whirl wind. Test after test and making arrangements for this and that. It's amazing what you can accomplish in so short a time if you need to. I don't think I've had a chance to process it yet.
So here we sit in the hospital waiting room, anxious for any scrap of information they can give from the operating room, trying not to drive each other crazy.
Did I mention how much I hate hospitals?
Sunday, July 01, 2007
It's July - Finally!!!
Now normally the beginning of a two month stretch with only one holiday and super hot weather does not elicit joy in my heart. I am, after all, a heat wimp disliking temps much above 80 degrees. However this year will be an exception. DH is due home in a few weeks and it can't go by soon enough.
But I would be lying if I didn't say I didn't have some fear about him coming home. It's the same old stuff I think I blogged about before - how will he fit back into our routine, how will we have to change our routine, etc?
Ok, I just need to take a deep breath and focus on one thing at a time. Let's start with finding a job in AZ...
But I would be lying if I didn't say I didn't have some fear about him coming home. It's the same old stuff I think I blogged about before - how will he fit back into our routine, how will we have to change our routine, etc?
Ok, I just need to take a deep breath and focus on one thing at a time. Let's start with finding a job in AZ...
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