I have to say, there is nothing in this world like experiencing a holiday thru the eyes of a young child. This is especially true of your own child. Tonight we went over to a friend's house and went around their neighborhood with the dad's younger brother and sisters, as well as his 2yo son and infant daughter. It was nice, the neighbors were out and greeting each other, there were no worries.
Today was my son's first real halloween experience. He really and truly understood the concept of trick or treating, and enjoyed it. Not like last year when he kind of got it but was still a little shy about it. The pure joy on his face as he went from house to house was magic to watch.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Speaking of Doctors
Lately I've been obsessed with drs.
I've been trying to get DS in to see his pediatrician with no luck. I originally wanted to be sure to get him his flu shot this year. No go with his ped, they are only giving shots to kids under 3yo. OK, fine, I'll take him somewhere else to get one. A few days later I'm reminded by his daycare that he needs to have his vaccinations updated. So again I call the dr and am told they won't just give him the shot because it's been more than a year since they've seen him (DUH!). Since his 4 year check is due soon anyway I asked to just schedule it a little early and do the vaccine then. Nope! They are booked until after the first of the year. What?! That's crazy! Every dr in a 5 person practice is booked until after January 1, 2008?!
So I began my search for a new ped. Luckily the other ped that came recommended to me is taking new patients and I can get DS in to see him next week!
In the midst of this fiasco I had my own annual exam to go to. It was the rescheduled appt from what was supposed to be my first prenatal check. I just have to say I love, love, love my ob/gyn. The entire office staff is really wonderful. My appt was with the nurse practitioner, whom I really liked already. We chatted about how things were going, DH being back, etc. And I lost it. Between sobs I explained about losing the baby. She was really wonderful. And I think she was a little upset that the office staff hadn't had me come in for bloodwork when I called about the bleeding starting. She immediately ordered bloodwork for me and they took it before I left the office. She promised to call me on Monday with the results.
I've been trying to get DS in to see his pediatrician with no luck. I originally wanted to be sure to get him his flu shot this year. No go with his ped, they are only giving shots to kids under 3yo. OK, fine, I'll take him somewhere else to get one. A few days later I'm reminded by his daycare that he needs to have his vaccinations updated. So again I call the dr and am told they won't just give him the shot because it's been more than a year since they've seen him (DUH!). Since his 4 year check is due soon anyway I asked to just schedule it a little early and do the vaccine then. Nope! They are booked until after the first of the year. What?! That's crazy! Every dr in a 5 person practice is booked until after January 1, 2008?!
So I began my search for a new ped. Luckily the other ped that came recommended to me is taking new patients and I can get DS in to see him next week!
In the midst of this fiasco I had my own annual exam to go to. It was the rescheduled appt from what was supposed to be my first prenatal check. I just have to say I love, love, love my ob/gyn. The entire office staff is really wonderful. My appt was with the nurse practitioner, whom I really liked already. We chatted about how things were going, DH being back, etc. And I lost it. Between sobs I explained about losing the baby. She was really wonderful. And I think she was a little upset that the office staff hadn't had me come in for bloodwork when I called about the bleeding starting. She immediately ordered bloodwork for me and they took it before I left the office. She promised to call me on Monday with the results.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Just What The Doctor Ordered - Kind Of
I think this past weekend was just what we needed. DH, DS and I were able to get out of town for a little "vacation" to NM. Granted, it was because FIL was having surgery but luckily the surgery ended up only being a day surgery proceedure. He had his ankle pinned a while back and one of the pins broke last winter. The surgery on Monday was to take the broken pin out. OK, so it only took them a year to admit it needed to come out.
DH was able to reconnect with some of his buddies from NM and I think that did him a world of good.
It was also great for DS to be able to spend time with Grandpa J and Grandma J, as well as me and DH. We did all the fun things we could find to do, including the Balloon Fiesta in Albuquerque. Absolutely beautiful. I highly recommend it if you are looking for something to do next fall.
Best of all, we were able to spend most of the weekend not thinking about last week. Until the very end of the visit with the IL when my FIL commented that he would like another grandchild. He doesn't know about the baby. We chose not to tell anyone beyond my sister and the sister DH is closest to. All I could do was smile and say "I know." And at that moment reality came crashing back in on me. Just for a moment or two. I don't know if DH heard the comment. If he did he didn't say anything to me about it.
DH was able to reconnect with some of his buddies from NM and I think that did him a world of good.
It was also great for DS to be able to spend time with Grandpa J and Grandma J, as well as me and DH. We did all the fun things we could find to do, including the Balloon Fiesta in Albuquerque. Absolutely beautiful. I highly recommend it if you are looking for something to do next fall.
Best of all, we were able to spend most of the weekend not thinking about last week. Until the very end of the visit with the IL when my FIL commented that he would like another grandchild. He doesn't know about the baby. We chose not to tell anyone beyond my sister and the sister DH is closest to. All I could do was smile and say "I know." And at that moment reality came crashing back in on me. Just for a moment or two. I don't know if DH heard the comment. If he did he didn't say anything to me about it.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Making Me Crazy
Physically I'm doing ok. The bleeding has stopped and my body has figured out it's no longer pg. Mentally, though, I'm not sure.
Things have been pretty rough this week. DH was officially diagnosed with mild PTSD, which I could have told the dr. He's now on medication, which is good. I thought for sure he would resist but he took his first dose last night without me having to remind him. That's a good thing.
Now if only I could help him do something about the job he loves to hate. I swear, those people are out to make him crazy, and me in the process. It's amazing how all the "We're so glad you're back. We support you 100%. We'll help you get back into the swing of things." talk has evaporated like water in the desert. As soon as DH realized that he was no where ready to be thrown back into things they began to give him a hard time. I mean, let's not work to make the situation better so you will want to come back and stay on staff. Instead, let's throw every roadblock in your way and make it so you dread going to work and add more stress to your life. After all, the state is only experiencing a little short staffing issue when it comes to it's corrections facilites. They don't really need the officers they have to stay and be able to recruit others to work for the DOC, right?
Things have been pretty rough this week. DH was officially diagnosed with mild PTSD, which I could have told the dr. He's now on medication, which is good. I thought for sure he would resist but he took his first dose last night without me having to remind him. That's a good thing.
Now if only I could help him do something about the job he loves to hate. I swear, those people are out to make him crazy, and me in the process. It's amazing how all the "We're so glad you're back. We support you 100%. We'll help you get back into the swing of things." talk has evaporated like water in the desert. As soon as DH realized that he was no where ready to be thrown back into things they began to give him a hard time. I mean, let's not work to make the situation better so you will want to come back and stay on staff. Instead, let's throw every roadblock in your way and make it so you dread going to work and add more stress to your life. After all, the state is only experiencing a little short staffing issue when it comes to it's corrections facilites. They don't really need the officers they have to stay and be able to recruit others to work for the DOC, right?
Monday, October 08, 2007
Little Angel
It wasn't meant to be. Last night I woke up with cramping at about 12:30. When I went to the bathroom I realized that I was bleeding. My worst fears come to reality.
I should have guessed this might happen. The BFP I got last week was not very dark.
So I went thru the motions today. It was very surreal, like someone else was doing things and I was just looking thru the holes that are the eyes. I'm tired and my whole body hurts. I don't know if that is normal or not, though I suspect it might be. I've never done this before, and quite honestly I don't want to do it again.
Luckily my DH is the sweetest man I know. This morning he held me while I cried (and I suspect he cried a little himself). He's taken on alot of caring for DS today, which has been nice. It does my heart good to see them together.
I should have guessed this might happen. The BFP I got last week was not very dark.
So I went thru the motions today. It was very surreal, like someone else was doing things and I was just looking thru the holes that are the eyes. I'm tired and my whole body hurts. I don't know if that is normal or not, though I suspect it might be. I've never done this before, and quite honestly I don't want to do it again.
Luckily my DH is the sweetest man I know. This morning he held me while I cried (and I suspect he cried a little himself). He's taken on alot of caring for DS today, which has been nice. It does my heart good to see them together.
Friday, October 05, 2007
Dreams Coming True
So, I realized that I forgot to update yesterday. I did POAS and it was BFP! It was faint but it was there. My temps have stayed up, and went up again this morning. My plan is to test again tomorrow morning and keep temping thru Monday or Tuesday. After that I'll put the thermometer away.
I told DH yesterday. I tried to be "cute" about it and send him a pic message at work but the picture didn't come out well. So I dressed DS in his "I'm the Big Brother" t-shirt and had him ask DH for some milk. When DH saw the shirt he was confused at first. It didn't take him long to figure it out though. LOL! I'm just relieved that he's happy.
My sister knows because she called me yesterday morning and asked me point blank. We'll tell the rest of our families after my first appt in a couple weeks.
OMG! We actually managed to get pg again. I was pretty much ready to admit defeat and move on. I'm going to be 39 this year. I know we are still in for a bit of a rollercoaster ride but we're ready.
I told DH yesterday. I tried to be "cute" about it and send him a pic message at work but the picture didn't come out well. So I dressed DS in his "I'm the Big Brother" t-shirt and had him ask DH for some milk. When DH saw the shirt he was confused at first. It didn't take him long to figure it out though. LOL! I'm just relieved that he's happy.
My sister knows because she called me yesterday morning and asked me point blank. We'll tell the rest of our families after my first appt in a couple weeks.
OMG! We actually managed to get pg again. I was pretty much ready to admit defeat and move on. I'm going to be 39 this year. I know we are still in for a bit of a rollercoaster ride but we're ready.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Hopes and Dreams
I can't begin to tell you how supremely excited I am for my fellow oldster. Her good news was indeed confirmed last Friday and her numbers look good again early this week. I'm wishing a happy and healthy pregnancy for you my friend! I can't say it enough;-)
My friend S is home with her DD and they are doing well. I spoke with her briefly yesterday to make sure she was home and to offer my help if she needs it.
Hopefully tomorrow will bring some wonderful news for our little family as well. I didn't dare hope that this cycle would be successful but it seems it just might. A nice high temp will be cause for me to POAS in the morning. Keep your fingers crossed!
My friend S is home with her DD and they are doing well. I spoke with her briefly yesterday to make sure she was home and to offer my help if she needs it.
Hopefully tomorrow will bring some wonderful news for our little family as well. I didn't dare hope that this cycle would be successful but it seems it just might. A nice high temp will be cause for me to POAS in the morning. Keep your fingers crossed!
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