Goodbye To A Real Life Angel

Today I was shocked and saddened to hear of the passing of an OL friend. She was a member of a ttc board that I spend time visiting and I got to know her and her DD there. She was such a sweet person, always willing to give a (virtual) hug when you needed it and a fantastic mommy. The truly sad part is that her DD is still very young and she had just given birth to her DS a few weeks ago.

Shortly after we had relocated temporarily back to WA, Christy contacted me because she too was new to that same area. We'd tried to find a time to get together but were never able to. I'm so very sad about this.

Goodbye Christy! We all love you and will miss you.

Note To Self

When you think about getting a flu shot, it's best to do it right away. If you don't you won't get one and then you'll end up getting the flu.

As you might have guessed, I'm not feeling so hot. I made it thru work yesterday but the last couple hours were with a very upset stomach. I felt a little better after I ate some dinner but the nausea has returned. Of course that could also be from me having woken up at 1am and not being able to get back to sleep. I hate nights like this...or should I say mornings like this.

Happy Thanksgiving

What am I thankful for this year? So many things, not the least of which is DH's safe return from deployment. It's been tough readjusting but I'm grateful for being able to have to struggle with that rather than the alternative.

I'm thankful for good health for all of us, a couple of good jobs, family and friends, and especially for the cutest, sweetest little boy in the whole world (even if he is a bit of a grouch right now).

Oh, and BFPs for a couple of ladies who have worked long and hard to see those two pink lines. I hope you both are able to begin enjoying the miracle of growing those precious beans.

I Knew It

Things have been going so well, really they have been. Until DH went to drill on Saturday. Then the other shoe, that damned shoe, dropped like I just knew (and dreaded) it would. His unit is on "warning" for deployment next summer.

Of course there is always the slightest possibilty that they won't have to go but with the current state of things, that's not very likely.

And so we wait, trying to keep things as normal as possible for DS while preparing for more time apart.

Oh, and need I mention that this puts a serious "hurry up" on our TTC timeline? No pressure...

Another Cycle

I'm not quite sure what happened on Sunday but I've been thinking about it alot.

AF showed. Damn her and the crampy broom she rode in on! I can't begin to tell you how frustrating it was, especially given how perfectly we timed things last cycle. I dutifully used my OPKs, took my prenats, we bd when we were supposed to and got our timing just right and nothing. Well, nothing except phantom pg symptoms. Great! Just what I needed.

So, after I managed to get out of bed and showered, we piled into the car and sped off to church. I'm the first person to admit to not being the most religious person but it's important to DH. I can't exactly tell you why I stopped going to church, there are several reasons which I won't go into now.

But this Sunday I went. And I cried all thru mass. I don't know why but I couldn't get the tears to stop flowing. I found myself letting go of alot of my anger at God. And I've come to the decision that, while there are a number of things I don't have any control over, I've decided that I can and will do everything I can to be sure I give myself the best possible chance of getting pg within the next 12 mos. If it doesn't happen at least I can't say I didn't try.

New Dr Update

So DS had his first appt with his new pediatrician. I really liked him, and more importantly so did DS. He came in and talked to DS before beginning the exam and was very patient when DS sidetracked us with showing off how smart he is. They had a poster with Mickey Mouse and the gang that encouraged counting. Without any prompting DS began showing me how many Mickey Mouses, how many Goofys, etc.

The only down side was that DS was behind on vaccinations so he had to get one, plus his flu shot. Poor kid was a little sore but after some walking around, some lunch and a little tylenol he was better. I always want to cry with him when he gets shots.