Only One With a Black Eye Now

So maybe it's PMS, or maybe it's fatigue, or maybe it's both. Whatever it is, there is no kick in the stomach like the one you get from someone who sends you an email shouting that they are pregnant.

Yup! You read that right. Yet another cousin, another younger cousin, is pg. And joy of joys, she some how thinks it's twins. The promise of email updates is just keeping me on the edge of my keyboard.

I just want to burst into tears right now. The frustration is overwhelming. Really overwhelming. I'm so scared that we won't be successful when DH gets home.

I'm also scared that the last few weeks DH is overseas will end up with him, or someone from his unit, getting seriously hurt. It seems like many injuries, or deaths, happen during the weeks leading up to the guys return home. Not sure why that is but I'd feel much better if I knew for sure they were not doing any more runs. The less time he spends on the road the more likely the chance he'll come home safely.

On the bright side, DS's eye is back to normal. His scratch is barely visible and the bruising and swelling is completely gone.

A Black Eye

Last week was a rough week for my poor DS. He had a little run in with a dump truck at school. He and his little buddy decided to play with the truck on the slide. When his friend sent it down the slide, DS didn't move fast enough (or maybe at all!) and the truck hit him in the side of his face near his eye. He's fine! He got a scratch and, eventually, a black eye. But he didn't cry or anything! My tough little guy.

It does look like DH will be home in July. I still don't have a date yet. I'm so excited! As soon as he gets home we are going to be able to start TTC again. I can't tell you how ready I am to have him home so we can get back to our lives!

It's funny how you react to the news someone you know is pg. Yesterday my sister was checking her email and read that one of our cousins is pg. My sister is very excited and happy. I, on the other hand, was devistated. My first reaction was, is she crazy?! She's too young, it's a bad idea. She's already got a 2yo son, and no, she's not really too young. She's got a job, her husband has a job, they have a house, all the things you're supposed to have. My reaction was purely related to my inabilty to get pg over the last 18 mos or so. It's dumb, and not fair to her. I haven't responded to her email yet. I need to. I just don't want to really deal with the pretend excitement I will end up having to portray.

It feels like both DS and I got a black eye this week...

Still Here

I don't really have alot to say. That's not true, I have alot to say but I fear it would bore most people to tears. I just didn't want anyone who might still be reading this to think I've abandoned you;-)

And so I'll just close this post and head for bed. Morning will be here before I know it. It's been a long week and tomorrow promises to be a busy day.

Time is Getting Short

I can't believe it's been so long since my last post. Life has been moving in fast forward and I feel like I'm just hanging on sometimes.

DS is doing wonderfully. He's become quite the little person lately. Some days I love it and some days it drives me batty! But we get thru it.

The happy realization this week has been that DH is going to be home by the end of July. We still don't have a firm date yet. I'm a little nervous about what life will be like once he's home. The adjustment is going to be difficult. I know we'll get thru it, but its the anxiety of the unknown that makes me nervous.